A new journey begins

A new journey begins

People go on journeys every day. You might be going to work, catching up with old friends, changing careers, getting married or saying goodbye to a loved one. Journeys can be good or they can be bad. Some are impactful, others are the mundane of everyday life. Unless you are the type of person who never wants to close a door, then all journeys come to an end.

When you get back home, close the door and look back on your journey, you can choose how long for.

A few years ago I started a journey that I had not planned. It’s not like I turned up at the airport and picked a destination at random and went off to find myself; although one evening quite some time ago I did email a whole bunch of people including my boss and said that was more or less what I was going to do.

I finally accepted the fact that my brain was not quite as it should be, but that brain was me and I was my brain and the two never shall part. Well I hope not anyway as that would involve decapitation. I sought help from a doctor, and the doctor I saw was magnificent. I started my journey to understand my brain, and in turn make me as happy as I could be.

The journey was slow, had no reliable schedule and was quite often very bumpy. But it has now come to an end. I cannot guarantee that I won’t have to re-trace these steps, but for now I will keep pictures of this journey in a drawer and if I ever need to look back, I will open the drawer and pick out the good ones. If the drawer is stuck, then I can just look on the internet instead as I’ve posted a whole load of them online. I prefer to paint the picture here with a drawer; it is more traditionalist.

I have been boring the shit out of people with my running antics for some time, but you don’t have to please all of the people all of the time so I don’t care. This is my new journey and I shall not dwell on the past.

The running I had done before was part of sorting myself out. A healthy body promotes a healthy mind. What I am doing now is trying to achieve something I never thought possible, going beyond just sorting myself out and getting to “fuck me, I just did that”. It is never too late to do something incredible. Learn to fly a plane, to play the piano, climb a mountain, or just be nice to everyone.

My new journey started yesterday with completing my first ultra marathon. It was mostly on trails, but when you were out in the open, Ben Nevis’s younger cousins came out to bully you in the playground. It was hotter than hell, and what moisture there had been in the air God had saved for another day. It was like getting hit by a rubbish truck, then having it reverse over you a couple of times before tossing you in the back and dumping you at the finish line. I was battered, my muscles had gone out on general strike and I smelled like shit. It was the most brutal thing I have ever voluntarily done in my life. 

In two weeks I am doing one twice as long, entirely in the woods, and some of it will be at night. For some bizarre reason I am looking forward to it.

Journeys in life can make no sense at all sometimes.

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