Keep it going – I feel good

Keep it going – I feel good

If ever there were evidence for how much exercise helps with my mental health, I just have to look back over the last couple months. In mid-November I more or less stopped my training programme. This was to give my knees a break, but to also allow me a period where I could eat what I want, and also have a few drinks. If I look at my last mental health post, it was not that of a happy man. Duh – look for the obvious sometimes.

By December I had become not a very nice person. I didn’t know this at the time, it was only when I was depressed over the Christmas period that I knew something had been wrong. On Christmas Eve, after speaking to no one for quite some time, I just went to bed feeling like nothing. My head was void of thought. On New Year’s Eve I also felt shocking, but in a confused panicky way. I thought I might have been ok on Christmas Day, but apparently I was not.

On Thursday 12th January the fog lifted and I suddenly felt great. This is what happens with me, all of a sudden I will feel like a human again, and the time when I thought I was ok but was not will just be a blur. December is a blur.

I could see the weight lift off my wife’s shoulders. Apparently I had been unbearable to live with, and I had no idea of this.

I am perhaps a little up right now, but not in a particularly bad way. I am doing lots of things (which my wife has picked up on), but I feel fine. My head feels fine and I am not manic, manic.

My wife gave me a hug the other day and said ‘Welcome back – I love you’. Sorry darling x

Part of the reason I am staying well in my head is this:

If I keep this going I know (or rather hope) that I can keep feeling ok. I’ll not stop exercise again – that did not work out. There is part of me that thinks I unconsciously stopped because I wasn’t feeling great, but I’ll never know this.

The objective of my training this year is really focussed on running an ultra marathon, and in the process getting my body in the best shape of it’s life; as long as that shape isn’t round. The best shape I got myself into was for the Berlin Marathon which is the featured picture of this post, so I’m aiming to beat that.

Berlin Marathon

In a month or so I am going to start posting before and after pictures to really embarrass myself, but also to keep the impetus going.

Going to take on my first run since November tomorrow night which I’m quite excited about.

Scully

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